I Think I’m Tired

Something I have noticed lately is that my energy levels are lower than they were eight months ago. For a period during the fall/winter, I was blogging multiple times a week, I would leave work and get to the Kwoon at 4:15 and hammer out reps, I was on the mats every day of the week, I was thriving. 

Today, I feel as though I’ve declined away from that point. Blogging has seem to become a chore again, when I get to the Kwoon all I want to do is lay with my head in my arms until it’s time for classes to start, I only consistently attend the kids classes, and my general motivation for my forms and numbers has severely decreased. As I write, it even feels like the general quality of my blogging is just lower. I mean, to be completely honest, I’m only blogging because I made a promise to myself that I wouldn’t get to do the fun stuff I have planned today until I blog.. not a great thing to have to do but here we are?

The cause? Energy, motivation, drive, willpower, mental health, the usual suspects. All seem to be in a decline at the moment. This last week, I was trying to work on doing stuff once I got to the Kwoon. More forms and more numbers instead of procrastinating. I think that, on some days, it made things better. It got me warmed up and ready to go. Other days, it seemed to make things worse. It sapped my energy faster and I hit the floor really quickly. 

I think I’m being slowly forced to understand that no perfect system exists, and a next-to-perfect system will take a long time to establish. 

Numbers (per last seven days)

Push-ups: 160, 60, 142, 120, 200, 142, 50

Sit-ups: 150, 80, 142, 40, 142, 142, 80

Walking (KM total): 10-14

AoK: 5 x7